I Need An Attitude Adjustment



   I need an attitude adjustment. It’s either that or run away from home and what’s the point of that? Where ever I go I take me with me and today that includes my rather snarky attitude.  The answer is not running away, the answer is in me. Go Figure.
    School has started. Yes, I know, it’s only August and it’s hotter than forty hells here in Georgia but school has started. 15 hour days are the norm and let’s not even talk about how much money I’ve spent on my classroom already. My washusband used to say that they should stash all the teachers in a hotel for the first and last month of school because we were crazy.  When school starts teachers go from 0 to a 100 mph trying to get ready for our students. It’s not a pretty picture.  Last night around 11:00 p.m. it caught with me. I let myself get away from me. The minute I noticed that I was not me, peaceful and at ease, I called time out. 
   I made a cuppa tea and while I was waiting for it to brew I picked up A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle and just flipped through it.  I found this underlined passage on page 295, “If you are not in the state of acceptance, enjoyment, or enthusiasm, look closely and you will find that you are creating suffering for yourself and others.”  Well, duh. 
    I took a cuppa tea, went outside and sat in the still, relatively cool air and brought myself back to myself and enjoyment.  I love my job, I want to love my job and I do when I don’t let the pressure get to me, when I stay in the moment and out of fear. We want to blame someone for our own unhappiness or stress and most of the time it's caused by our thinking and a lack of awareness of our inner being. We lose touch with our selves and our connection to God. 
    An attitude adjustment is as simple as being aware of your inner state of and returning to one of the three states of “modalities of awakened doing,” joy, enthusiasm, or acceptance.  It is as simple as remembering that you are not your thoughts, you are a child of God and He delights in your joy.
  Today I am going to work some more. I’m a teacher. It’s the first week of school. It’s what we do. I am also going to bring joy into my life. Today joy looks a lot like a good book and a nap in the hammock

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